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Date: 06/06/2009
By: Amy
Subject: dont know what to do
please contact me at my email gmcinvale251@aol.com. The first thing is that God does not promise us for things to always be good but that he will not put more on us than we can bare without providing a way of escape. Be still and know that he is God. Stay focused on him and things of this world want seem so bad. God loves you and I look forward to getting an email and sry I havent been online in a few. Amy!
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Date: 06/13/2009
By: mjkcalmom
Subject: Re: dont know what to do
i do thank you for responding, it was such a blessing to see this today as i really did need too... looking forward to emailing you , always, ms
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Date: 06/25/2009
By: Amy
Subject: Re: Re: dont know what to do
God told me to tell you he loves you and if you will focus your life on him he will make things right for you and your children. I want to tell you about my last year. I was always wanting to do things for my self and always got inpatient and would never let go and let God. I never had much relationship wiht my mother until I was grown. I did live with her but that is the sad part about me not ever having a relationship with her. As I got grown I began to look at things differently and we began to get along and May of last year I had a major disaster happen in my family and me and my mother were no longer speaking. God said to me Be Still And Know That I Am God, no sin goes unpunished. Being still is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your life but I did. Now me and my mother does still not speak very much but the best part of it. I have learned that a Bond between a mother and child is a God given gift that nothing can break. No matter what your mother does or does not do you will always love her. I have also learned to lean on God more and I find myself healing everyday. The point I am trying to make is that your children love you no matter what the situation is. No one can do anything about that. They can not take that away from you no matter how much it may look like it. I am a mother of 3 and I know the pains of a mother for her child. My oldest was born with autism and I was very young when I had her and at that point in my life I did what was best for her. I gave her up to my mother. It was the best thing for her at that time. Now I am getting my custody back and God is working things out for us. It is all because I stood steadfast in my faith and I listened to him when he said Be Still. So I challenge you today to Be Still and let God take care of it. To Be Still means to do absolutely nothing but pray about it. Sit back and watch what God will do when you give him the glory he desreves.
Love always,
Amy
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Date: 06/30/2009
By: mjkcalmom
Subject: Re: Re: Re: dont know what to do
mrs amy,
i take your challengs, and thank you for understanding my pain, and not judging me.
i do love my children very much!. they got whee they are because thier father divorced me, for his own reasons, so i give him that. then his siter told me he had abondomed them with her, and i was needed to sign some thing saying she could get medical help if they needed it, . well 11 years later, and it only gets worse not being able to see them, and the children are suffering very much emotionally. i am at my last ends and so scared when they might try again, to hurt themselves, if it will be the end, and ill not know how to help. i have sit back n prayed, every day, i feel it is wrong for one to juge another, and my temper is my owrst enemy when it comes tom my family, and my children mostly, and the lasck of understanding how some may say i go to church, but you cvant see your chirldren beacuse i have no reason for you, i say so that is what.
i have been through more than i cared to go through, but i ow he dont put me through nothing i cnat handle, i am embarresed of my children being with her, she hates me, but puts on an act for others, and i do my very best everyday... and yet i fall short to everyone, so i stay home now, clean n pray, and do what i think is best for my life, and wait... just the waiting as you saiod is the hardest part. i dont even know what to say to them anymore, i keep getting yelled at by my son, who is mad at her, and takes it out on me, my oldest girl, well, i dont even know where to start on this.. i know she loves me, if i cry she cries, and some times, i just cant help it, . she is womnderful, and great, they all are !!!!, so much to offer this workld,. and i missed out on every thing in thier lifes because some one dont like me and my family, my kids dont know my family, and now because i took them to see my mom on my way home, thety are unbal to see me now, that is thier grandmother, too!, my life is nothing with out my children, and im am determined to be there when they need me, i have to go for now, this talking gets me .. i cant do it with out crying, thank you, for everything, , katie
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Date: 05/20/2009
By: mjkcalmom1975
Subject: dont know what to do
every day of my life i am emptyn lost, but not b/c i dont have god, but b/c i am not with my children that i love more than life itself!!!I am always confussed on why they dont stay with me, and why i am with out them, all over a divorce!, my problems started after it happened. i am a weak person who feel short of god,
not proud of what i have done in my past, but that is whre it is at.i have been trying for 9-10 years now to do right, but still when i ask what i done so badly, that my very own flesh n blood cant be with me, i get very emotionally challenged
thoughts of death run in my head all the time, but i got 4 very beautful reasons why i stay alive!!!!!
I am ok with the divorce now, took many years to over come, b/c that was my childghood love , and grew deeply each year we spent togherther as a family. it was my dream all my life, to be loved by him n his family, i fell short of them as well too,
after he left, i dont nothing right, i turned to drugs, which caused me to get furhter form what i wanted som much, a chance to be a mother, a mom, some one who they could count on n trust, i failed them, and i know this due to i read a bio that hurt me so bad, i am feeling like i did when this nightmare started, and yes, this is a nightmare for me, . i feel tourtured really, so my question is, how do i truly stay alive in the love of god, when all i have loved has been gone form me, and i dont even really understand why, i am screaming for help, does any one hear my cries for my children? it is my fault they are going through the things they are . i feel i cant protect them .i just really dont know what to do, all i have tried has failed, and with out hurting no one has been my goal, but it will no matter what i do, or say, then again, im back to blame, i am tierd of fighting, so what is your advice, to me, as i have givin this matter to god bewfore, and it goes un notcied .thank you for your time, and ill understand if you dont have an answer for me, b/c each time i asked what did i do wrong, and why cant i be foregiven n gave a 2nd chance at being a mom, NO ONE can answer it, or they say theyll have to tlka to me laster on,
my time has been taking form them all these years and of course i am at fault for alot of stuff, my reason is just protecting what i feel is rught, but to all else, im worng, so what do i do now, before one of my babies, kill thierr selves or just wont love me. i fighted for the love n affetion form my own mother as a child, i never thought i would have to fight so hard for the love of my children,
i just want them close to me, and it seems i have no choice but to let it be as it is, no matter how much it is killing me,
i thank you for you r time, .mjkcalmom
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